Friday, July 3, 2009

My Motivation

It's not easy being 300 pounds at 24. Friends go skiing in the winter and swimming during the summer. They're in serious relationships, getting married, or having children. They wear beautiful suits to work and cute tops to dance clubs.

I weigh 300 pounds. I haven't been in a relationship for 5 years, and I can't climb the stairs without panting. I wear a size 24 pant and XXL top.

I avoid going anywhere for fear of people looking at me and making comments. I definitely don't go out to bars anymore. My friends all get free drinks, and I get ignored. When I'm in public, all I can think is, "I weigh 300 pounds."

I am doing this for my health. All of my family is large. My grandfather and father are diabetic. I don't want to have a heart attack at 30 and die young. I want to be able to pick up and go to the beach without buying coverups or making an excuse. I don't want to think of reasons to avoid eating in public.

I don't want to be skinny; I want to be healthy. And I'm doing this so I can be proud of myself for taking a stand and taking control of my life.


  1. I understand where you're coming from. I try to be as social as possible, and sometimes I run into assholes. It's very painful when it happens. I remember standing outside New York Pizza on Oxmoor Road in Homewood, and a group of teens in a convertible mustang drove by and yelled, "Hey Fat Ass". It still hurts to this day, and this happened like two years ago.

    Also, I currently attend a lot of networking events to promote my business, and it's often very awkward because when I look at people that I don't know, most times they will see me then look at the floor or away. But, I tell myself, I want to see their reactions in a year when I've dropped 300 pounds.

    Anyways, keep up your new healthy lifestyle. You will have bad days and some bad weeks, but don't let this stop you. The best thing you can do when you have bad moments is blog about it. I rely heavily on people that follow my blog.

    Start following other weight loss blogs, and they will follow you. If you build it, they will come.

    I look forward to your next post.

  2. Thank you, Stephen. People can be so mean, and sometimes I really wish they could just live one day as me. But your words are so encouraging, and your blog is so uplifting.

    Look forward to taking this weight loss journey with great people like you!